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[party_of1]

 hi. im ariel. its 12:59am. ive got quite the vicious cycle here: i take an insane amount of time to fall asleep, then i cant STAY asleep, which gets made up for by "sleeping late" in the morning. the quotes are there cause its not really sleeping late cause i didnt really fall asleep until maybe 4 or 5am. so then i get my sleep, but then that night, once again, i cant get to sleep.
my mom turned me onto these tablets called MidNights, theyre self-dissolving and non habit forming. only one is supposed to be enough; i took two last night and still managed to see 4-something am on my clock. and i had things i NEEDED to do today (college open house, anyone?) which started early, so i couldnt really stay in bed and catch up, but when i did get back i crashed from 3 something til around 7. now, as per usual, im WIDE awake.
i have been diagnosed and medicated for depression (actually thats how i got here, someone on a depression comm linked me here.), and i take welbutrin. it was suggested that i take it at the same time every morning so i could 'get a move on' so i wouldnt be up late. mom and dad and i chose 8:30am for med time. so, in addition to my evil sleep cycle, i also wake up at various times thinking i missed my window but it winds up only being like, 4am. but i hate the way alarms pretty much SCARE me awake, so no alarms. so i dont really think it was ONLY the meds keeping me up, before. its gotta be something else. but i have no idea what. i dont know about a sleep cycle/circadian rhythm or whatever. i did keep a sleep journal for about 2 weeks, but when i did the math, it said i wasnt losing any sleep (probaly cause i make up for what i lost by sleeping in).

TL,DR:
1)cant go to sleep
2)when i go, i cant stay asleep (whatever non med reason)
3)cant stay asleep (med reason)
4)finally fall and stay asleep early morning
5)make up for lost night time sleep w/ daytime sleep
6)because of #5, we're back at #1

those white noise cd things

[party_of1]

 has anyone had any success with those?
i got a few off of itunes once for my ipod, but my mother, being herself, was all "what if theres a fire or something and you cant hear anything cause you have those earbuds in". and i DONT want to use the cd player/clock, cause that would mean plugging in that nasty bright blue LED light that ive read about being the natural enemy of sleep. 
co, i guess i just wanna know if its worked for anyone. ive read its good for babies. and my mom says when i was a baby we lived near enough to a expressway that she would take me out on the porch and i would go to sleep because i could hear all the cars go by.